last one

this is my last blog for utsa. I have been writing these blogs once a week for the whole entire semester and it has been a long haul. So for my last blog i am going to discuss something me and a friend of mine talked about on our last camping trip. We talked about how only the rich can afford the luxury of bieng poor. This has been extremely prevelant in my life over the last couple of months. As college nears i have not been able to decide if i want to live a life of a nomadic style or pursue my own business. I am practically stranded on the fence line for this topic. I am very strongly passionate against living for societies standards. I believe that every individual should not fall victim to judgement except to their own. Everyone should set their own standards and pursue their own goals and not what is excpected of them from others. Living for others is not a lifestyle of happiness. So one of my goals is to test myself all of the time. Yet when i say test myself i do not actually mean with a academic test or even to see how large of a salary i can make. I wan't to live a life of a nomadic style. Hitching it day by day. Kayaking day by day. Hiking the Appalachian Trial, the Pacific Crest Trail, and the Continental Divide Trail. Kayaking the great whitewater rivers of this country and abroad. Yet these things cost money. Also i have grown up in a comfortable lifestyle in which would be hard to leave. Another one of my dreams is to own my own outdoor center similiar to NOC. This is a proffesion that would make a decent sum of income. I feal as though i have potential to do great things. Not very modest yet i have a different outlook on life than most. So my dilema is which to pursue. Do i owe the world my effort by becoming an enviromental engineer. Or should i pursue a life of less money. If i do this will i regret not putting my life into a "greater good." I am lost as in what to do. This is a very bad explanation of my dilema. However through this i have come to the conclusion that in order to be happily poor you must be rich. The poor always want more. Yet the rich always do too. I want to live with less but have more.